Free Passes and Art Appreciation

Wow. Today was a doozy! In large part because tomorrow is going to be such a doozie and because yesterday was such a doozie. But wow!

So it’s August 31. Why is that significant? Because tomorrow is Day 1. 1 of 90. 1 of forever. One of now. One of change. I need change.

So how will I get change? By force? With time? 

Maybe if I change a bunch of stuff? What would that do? 

So I’ve come up with a plan. And since I love a challenge...

Are you tired yet? I’m already exhausted. Okay - deep breath...deeper breath.......even deeper breath..............

And exhale.

The 90 Day I am Challenge.

No Booze.

No real sugar sugar.

No POP.

Television - No more than 2 hours a day 5 days a week (try to make good choices!) One Day with no television. One day with as much as I freaking want so don’t even try to call me!

Facebook etc - No more than 30 minutes a day. Facebook might be the devil. 

Yoga - min 5 days a week - but way more importantly - invest in this. Show up on the mat - really show up. And smile when you can. And keep lookin’ fer jeebus.

Meditation - Do some. Try to make it the prosperous kind. But really - make it the happy kind.

Dream Journal - this challenge was a gift from my hubby. He loves dreams and dreaming. And he gets that a journey of self discovery should definitely include attention to dreams! I can only imagine how all the changes will affect my dreams and actually recording them so I can follow the evolution is super exciting . But I am terrified of what I might share and what it could reveal. ESPECIALLY - because dreams are so open to interpretation!!! I hate interpretation. Although I often require it.

Intuition Development - My genius friend Melanie Jones  (look her up under Awesome Prophet or Bad Ass Smoothie) gave me the challenge of developing my intuition. So, as she puts it, I’ll never need another ‘pros and cons’ list again!!  She has recommended a book as a starting place and has asked that I apply the lessons for 90 days to invest in my own sense of intuition. This will be very cool!

Somehow I just “know” it... 

: )

Bubble Baths - Once week I will devote 90 minutes to Girly-Time-Bubble-Bath Goodness. I’m thinking Bubble Bath Sunday has a nice ring to it. To me a bath represents indulgence and an investment in sensuality.

I think sensuality is one of the most fulfilling qualities a woman can have. 

Pepper that with a little blue haired burlesque fantasy and a killer soundtrack and you have a deeply satisfying Sunday Night. 

I’m looking forward to those. 

(I apologize if that last exchange burned your eyeballs out of their sockets or made you want to barf.)

Appreciate Nature - to me this is huge to syncing in with the universe. I’m so glad I'll start in the fall because Fall is my all time favourite season. Fleeting. Gorgeous. Falling (I do that sometimes) and more beautiful than anything I’ve ever seen.

Art Appreciation.

An Attitude of Gratitude. Once a day I will check in with gratitude.  I will appreciate what I am TODAY!! I will see the good. The now. The plentiful. 

That wasn’t a fat crack...

LOVE MYSELF - I have got to stop with the negative self talk. I have to be able to believe in who I am and what I’m capable of and I have to say FUCK OFF to the nattering mosquito of ‘ohwhatthefuckdoyouknow’?

I have to be kind to me because I’m a gentle-creature-approaching-middle-age-that-needs tending.

Which brings me to...

FREE PASSES!!!

I get 5. 

5 in 90’s days. So don’t get all “whu?? Free Passes?”....

I get 5.

Because I’m not striving for perfection. I’m striving for balance. And I don’t want to force. I want to choose. I choose the right to choose! And whatever I choose - I just want to try to understand why I chose it. And then I want to not judge it and just see it. And then I want to do some yoga, count my blessings and take a deep breath. And then an even deeper one. 

And by then I’m probably hungry again.

So I want to eat well. And with as little harm as possible. Mindfully.

So I think that’s it. I still have a challenge coming from my mom and I’m going to ask Cheryl to lend me a book of her choosing. AND - perhaps the most exciting thing of all??!!

I’m going to sober dance. So look the fuck out. For reals.